Wow. So much time has passed since I have been on this.
Last time I was on here, I was discovering who I am. Not much has changed.
I feel like I wasted so much time the past few years. I gained a lot of weight and strayed from the path that I had set up for myself. I guess I saw myself as married and slowly climbing the ladder at a corporate company that I loved. Truth is, things rarely go according to plan. I really wasted these last 5 years. A lot of self-loathing and just accepting the mundane. I can't even say that I had meaningful experiences...at least not until this year.
This year, I have lost 50 pounds, I traveled to Spain and even found romance. I truly feel alive again this year. More alive than I have in the last 5 that I wasted. This isn't a post to pat myself on the back. This is way for me to embrace this change and hopefully this is a springboard that will set me back on my "path." Life is this amazing journey and I have so much yet to experience.
My cat, Joey, keeps me straight and gives me discipline. He is currently dependent on me and I feel like having this responsibility is important for growth. Not quite the commitment of a child but offers more companionship than a goldfish. He is my lighthouse when I am lost.
To the readers:
Have you guys ever felt lost? What things in your life helped? Any advice for me or people like me?
